Milstein

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just watch the movie "where the wild things are". never heard of about it but it's fantastic. It's a fairy tales about a boy who leaves home after a quarrel with his mom. it's more like a little sad even cruel story. he arrives the island meets some odd animals and becomes friends with them.
beneath child's fantasy with happiness and laugh is the uneasy atmosphere. it's not a truely happy story though they really have good time. i think the director made it be like this intentionally. I like the the music and the color tones of shot, apparently, for this idea, with gray amid light, depression in joyfulness.

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If somebody irritates you continuously without any self-awareness, choose express nothing is another kind of hypocrite because you choose to hide your true feeling and pretend you are a fucking gentle person. No need to protect his face ok? that's ridiculous!
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The feeling will fade away eventually, but the memory can exist forever. Everytime we retrospect the stories in mind, actually we are reshaping that again and which is turned into another new memory with some extra our own imaginations. Everyting can be reminiscent of the past wonderful experiences and then we realize it never happen again. So we always pursue the joyfulness and end in frustration.
We will travel again and again as if we are tracing something lost somewhere, like searching for your tattered diary with your lovely past, because you're afraid you lost them as if you lost the evidence of your existence. Your happiness and sadness compose your existence.....but in your ordinary life, you become a maching, losing your consciousness day by day, however, it's hard to convice yourself you will accept this kind of life, at least now you cann't be conviced, so you leave, you go out, you start another travel again.

阿拉木圖的舊蘇聯旅社裡，燈光昏暗。不知道什麼時候睡著了，卻又醒來在深夜。滿眼淚痕，因為剛剛做了一場惡夢。一時分不清楚現實，還處在夢中的恐慌之中。以為自己即將被孤獨感吞噬，隨手抓起衣物想往外衝，不知道要跑去哪裡，只想看見其他人的存在。
整個樓層空無一人，猶如被廢棄的空屋，只有窗外對面樓層，幾戶微弱的燈光提醒我，我還是住在有人的地方。

12/01
沒多久隱約就可以看見陸地。

11/30晚

11/30

如果時間更久，
或是在其他的情形，
我想我會和我的室友之一，
來自黑龍江的哥兒們成為好朋友。

11/29
30個小時的火車，中間有一個整天都在車上度過。

在烏茲別克。
還在理應更多旅遊者的撒馬爾罕時，
已經感覺到淡季來臨的冷清。